My office is full of glass. Glass doorways, glass windows (duh), glass office walls, glass glass glass.
And a lot of the glass is reflective. In essence, my office is a house of mirrors.
ACK!
What's odd is that in SOME of the glass I think I look pretty good, but in others...YIKES!!
I don't think the interior glass is different from one wall to the next, but boy howdy can my IMAGE be different!
Also, I try to walk outside when the weather isn't broiling hot (and yes, I did mean BROILING), and most of the buildings have reflective glass. I find myself staring in the windows as I walk down the street. Checking out my posture, my muffin top, my thighs, my outfit, my hair, everything.
And I don't think this is a bad thing.
I worry when I'm AVOIDING looking at myself. I need to see what I look like...what I REALLY look like. For me, knowing is so much healthier than avoiding. Granted, this may not have been the case when I was 320lbs, but I have come a LONG way, and it needs to be celebrated!
Plus, the minute I stop looking is when my dress will be tucked up into my pantyhose...
8/1/11 224lbs
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